I was on my way to work and Brandy song “Nothing” started playing from my iPhone. The lyrics started out saying “Love is everything, and without it I’m nothing.” I thought about that statement for a moment and had to ask myself if I felt the same.
The love that I get from my spouse is different from the love I get from my children, which is different from the love I get from my parents and siblings. Could I live without being loved by someone?
Because I know what it is to be loved I can relate to what Brandy is saying. Love from my family is what drives me everyday to work hard and keep going. Without their love I feel like I would lack a purpose and it would be easier to just give up.
On days when I am at my lowest, the love that surrounds me when I get home or when I wake reminds me that my purpose is more than just that disappointment or that person who wants to make me feel like I am nothing. I am not alone in this journey.
Loving myself first opens me to being loved by others. If I cannot learn to love myself and everything about me good and bad than I am nothing. I would feel alone as the lyrics say and I do believe it would drive me mad.
I know there are things about myself that make me question how can anyone love this moody, indecisive, emotional being and then there are days when I feel like I carry it all so how can someone not want to love me.
I am thankful for the love my husband gives me and how he expresses his love, reminding me that I am someone he needs in his life. I am overjoyed by the love my children give me and how they make me feel as if I am the piece of them that completes them. I am loved by family with all my flaws and that makes me feel like someone, something and without I am nothing.